My father stopped talking to me after I walked out of my toxic marriage

 

 

so I told myself as usual his phone doesn't have a password he is not hiding anything

he had been asked who is she suing the photos we had taken during our honeymoon he had posted on his WhatsApp Status and he had been asking who is she

he had sent me a screenshot of the job

that popped up I don't know if he wanted

I don't know if he wanted a kid with her

you are welcome who is Koi and where does she come from?

once you finish school

she did not want to tell me

even phone calls I stayed there

I had added weight I was okay

it was fitting me really well mum was opening school

I was over sleeping we are educated

I prepared myself I took them to some shop

I left the clothes there in a bag I sneaked out the clothes

but she was not getting them the man responsible denied me

the sickness is too much and I was not feeling okay

whose is it? I wondered

my calls were not being received so I went home

was to carry milk it can be used in hospital

I told dad I don't have money I am not okay

together with the milk I really feel bad I can't even reach there

and told her who is responsible

she knew

even one at some [point

my phone could not switch on so I just kept it away

alright

I felt like no

with clothes I was in the village I was told your baby

you are past due with 2 weeks

the Ocampo 6 envelop was opened because after it was read out

I was injected I don't know how to call it

I was in great pain at night

I was shivering, I was feeling cold should I bring your baby?

he brought me the baby the pain and cold I was feeling just ended he had so much hair, actually you could plait it

I would eat it at grandmas even after being told at least to skip a day or two I would ensure I eat an egg at my grandmas

I called him and asked him what name should I give the baby?

let’s us call her your surname we can change it later on in case of anything

I don't know what it was for I asked mum to give him

he saw him she was 2 days old

he is prayerful

I talk to the lady I remember Free area Nakuru

I told him it was be so hard we had a misunderstanding with this guy

we did not have a misunderstanding per se it was one day I was so stressed

we started all the 400 sms would run out

we were more close I told him

come we stay he said no and in fact we had a misunderstanding

I didn't know him I am not someone who entertains gossip

myself

I did not have an issue with that; I just told him to get a job he had to shave

just to it and make money anyway I love you

I said okay, I have received the greetings I am the mother

the kid and I a woman is all about taking care of the homestead

about all his stuffs with the kid

he is not the one who took me to his mum

we agreed

I wanted a hotel business but he told me he didn't find space

he told me for the Business in Nyeri a wife is supposed to know where all the businesses are situated

she had been told let's go

in the village I would pass the hotel, took a motorbike a head home

we had a traditional wedding, the came home

I did not want to engage

the money I was given was quite a lot there was no bank

so, we could not bank the money since they were all closed, I want to travel in a matatu

whose kids you are give me my share, it was drama on the stage

I started crying she asked me to stop crying and told him to stop nonsense

with all the plans for the wedding we want money for the cards

money for his suit how much is it the money sends me if there's any money he was given, I don't know how he used it

I accounted for each cent we planned for the wedding

we had already done our traditional wedding

we delayed in meeting that lady delayed

the information I had with the photographer was different from the one I had with him

I don't understand I was completely mad at him

I fell into a ditch, injured my leg and hand it's hard

it was obvious and yet the time was not on our side

for the wedding in Congo, he said gold rings I lost everything

we got engaged

now that we had already planned

had been plaited I left in the morning

had arrived he had not arrived I had the men's suits they were in the laundry

he had not arrived yet I thought they had arrived with mum did you try to call him?

because mum was there so I just left and went to pick their suits

I had the clothes for the bridal team we went to the best couple and left the thing there

we left the gift cartoon in the house so I had to call and ask him to go for them

I was at my grandmas at that time already the things she did to them

we were supposed to arrive in church at 11 am instead of 10 am yet we were using the service lane

it rained in the morning from nowhere when we arrived in church

the things I am looking at got on the isle

there was something I noticed about him whether he was smiling or not we sung

we finished the wedding we did not go for the evening party, I was tired

I removed the lashes I would just go to booking

he did not have the money we had to open the envelopes we were given in order to get the money

in a place called Kivu

in the water I was the one who got into the water, this guy was fully dressed and he told me he doesn't want to get in the water

so, I told myself as usual his phone doesn't have a password, he is not hiding anything

he had been asked who is she suing the photos we had taken during our honeymoon he had posted them somewhere?

he had posted on his WhatsApp Status and he had been asking who is she

he was in the shower

we had already spoken on phone but we had already told each other good night

could you help me with so and so's number

I said it's okay so when the time for vows came the pastor told us now say your vows, I had already given up

I remember and told him to go and give to them you were with her

I told myself

can we get a baby

I have stopped when I stopped, I was told I can't conceive

I would talk to his friends, the doctors and at some point, I was told that I am lying I said no

I did a scan and brought him the results I told him I don't want to give you pressure

take it to them take it to them and let them analyze it to you

I told him take, give it to the doctors and ask them to analyse it to you I said enough

on that night he sent me a screenshot of a job and asked me to apply it for him

that popped up

it's not showing me so I was keen to check the job advert I was silent

when we spoke, I had told him I am okay I felt no and now that he came home and there was a lockdown there was nowhere he as going

he said he doesn't know, I had not yet showed him the text message he told me he doesn't know, I asked him what do you take me for

I now showed him the chat

I told him give me the phone but he refused so I told him while he was there

I don't know if he wants to, he wants a kid with her

I told myself I forwarded the messages to my phone while he was just there

I sent the messages to the mum

we were having a round table meeting, he was at the far end, he insisted he wants to sit there

so, we had a talk this is nonsense

we went separate ways you didn't go back home?

no, we went to the same house but separately

the wedding was supposed to be attended by just 15 people in church, so he told me we shall not to that wedding

he counted and asked me what are you planning

I told her I heard the church is full so I will get a cab then we meet at the reception

the wedding we took a photo it's just that I want to portray how happy we are

now that I had been told I can't give birth that girl is lying to you

I went and brought him the results again I went to their village

to work from there the kids were not in school so I went to stay in the village

he was seated this way and I noticed the house girl was picking the remote from here

just go she had a child

she left I told him

was flatting with him he used to call every lady a sister

sends you he wanted to do away with it on Saf

we were done we went to their village

I was working from their home I asked him lend me his phone now that my own had gone off

so, after he handed me the phone he stepped out

he sent her his phone number he gave her the number

the phone feel down and broke

I saw him and wondered why today he told me he wanted to help the sister who was moving out, yes, the sister was moving out

if I want to nab you, I had read the conversation

they had planned for a meeting but now since the phone had broken, they chat from there

so, when he came the following day, I asked him where are you going to he told me to help the sister who was moving out

I called the sister to ask if she was moving out on that day, she told me she was moving out the following day

he left and when he came back in the evening, I asked him if the sister moved out, he said yes

she mentioned he had gone to Transami so I wondered what he went to do yet his cousin I know of lived in Pipeline

girls, girls, girls the jobs he had are as a result of his mom

I wondered he told me he had no money

I looked for my grandma while they wee on the road

I can't manage with this English they were young

we were talking about the same thing I called the caretaker

to pack the mattress and the bed he asked me why did you go to look for the caretaker while I am here

I told him it's okay so he woke up and helped me pack my stuffs

everything had been packed I don't understand what the prayer was all about

that lady he had gone to meet it's a business

I will unpack my stuffs and take them back to the house he completely refused

so, I left she loves people

she used to call him dad

the kid jumped on him and he said he hurt him

she was just happy he told her stop calling me daddy

ended there my trust had ended there

in the evening it's just me and the kid we have to cook eat and sleep

is when I moved out, he had no idea

it was just my time

someone when I hear a kid calling dad I just cry

that thing just hurts me to date

all that time I told myself

even when mum wants to say something she will send me

but now I can't do anything he told him

right now, if your dad is watching this episode what would you like to tell him

I love him he was the one cooking for them and doing everything they needed

I want him to know just how much I love him where did I go wrong

they contributed a single cent you want

if it's about coming, I will pay for the vehicle if you want to sleep, I will ensure you are okay

I want him to know that I love him

I don't have anyone to call dad she has no one to talk to

I keep things to myself I keep things to myself

has ended

my baby as the only one who literally was there for me holding my phone

she sees me holding the phone disconnect the phone mum if she sees me going to the bedroom with the phone she tells me mum, I won't leave you because I know you want to cry

the pain I am going through many kids will tell directly if they want you to buy them something when you get money please by me this

I know I don't have money

she would tell me mum the day you will get money we shall buy a car

she is the only one in my life

and now what message do you have for your daughter

I love you

I passed through it has been pricked severally

I love her

what has made you

will love the kid after they have gotten their baby

the person who will marry me

those who have done weddings

you have kids who now tie you there the kids

a time will come and you will start blaming the kids even if you are not fighting

because you want to please someone

 

 

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